Being an Inspiration is the Why
The Fight of a Warrior
I was just a boy facing a man’s problems—trapped in a dark abyss I wasn’t sure I’d ever escape. My mind was constantly racing with thoughts that wouldn’t stop. I didn’t know if I was going to make it out alive.
I felt completely overwhelmed by the darkness in my mind. I had nowhere to turn and no idea how to help myself. At times, I truly believed I was a monster, that I was the cause of pain for others. I had lost all sense of hope.
But in my time of despair, something unexpected happened. I met people who helped me. I learned strategies that made life feel more manageable. I discovered healthy tools that helped bring light back into my life.
It all began while I was on a mission for my church. I believe if I had been in different circumstances, I might’ve gone down an even darker path. I struggled with understanding and expressing my thoughts, but the first step I took was seeing a doctor. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and began treatment with medication.
At my lowest, I had no desire to do anything. I wanted to stay in bed and disappear from the world. I felt hopeless and ashamed. I used to believe sadness could just be “fixed” by changing your attitude—but now I knew the reality was far more complex.
I didn’t want to be seen. I feared others might hurt themselves because of me. Thankfully, my church required me to be with a companion 24/7—something I initially hated, but now thank God for. That friend encouraged me to go to the gym. I had no motivation, but I went—and slowly, I noticed a difference. I tried meditating outside, and I felt something shift.
Still, I was struggling. I told God, “This is more than any man can handle.” I didn’t believe in Him anymore—not with how empty I felt. I cried out over and over, “Why did you do this to me?” And for a long time, there was no answer.
Then, one day, I asked a different question:
“What do you want me to learn from this?”
That’s when the answer finally came:
“I want you to be an inspiration.”
I wasn’t sure how I could inspire anyone. But a mission leader who saw the transformation in me told me to write down what had helped. He saw a night-and-day difference in me—and believed others needed to hear my story.
So I started writing.
I wrote about how depression had affected me. I shared the tools that helped me find a way forward. I realized just how many people suffer from this invisible illness—how it can break someone so deeply that they lose themselves.
My book, The Fight of a Warrior, was born from that pain and that purpose. The first half shares my personal story. The second half is a 20-step workbook to help others and their loved ones walk through the healing process—together.
This website exists for the same reason:
To offer hope.
To give people a place to turn when they feel like they have none.
To be a light in the darkness I once lived in.
